As I look back on this long trail to see just how far I have come I see you standing there. Just waving and smiling. No matter how loud I yell your name you just encourage me on. I try to turn around to come get you, But its as if a glass is in my way only forcing me to go forward. Suddenly the tears start to roll down my face as I realize that the trail I am is my life, and you can't come with me because your life has ended three years ago. I weep harder. Wishing that some how I could come and drag you with me.

Well, three years ago on the 27th of November, I lost my VERY best friend, and my ex boyfriend of three years. (Iron huh), I miss him so much, and it hurts to know that I have to go on without him. But I also know that he is probably much better off without the world. Only 12 years though wasn't near enough to satisfy me, but I guess I must manage, huh? His death was VERY sudden, but it has helped many of us realize that we must live our lives to the fullest, we must laugh often, Dream big, and Love so much more than we do. The next moment is never guarenteed to us. Everybody who knew him it affected dramatically, And I just wish that I had one more chance to apologize and say that I'm sorry for everything, and although we never said sorry, we had started talking more, yet I can't help but feel guilty about it now.

I love you Cody.
~Jeanetta